I miss my family enormously. Together we were always dreaming about big house where all of us would live together, me, my mom and dad, and my brother. Well, life is what it is, constant adventures and obstacles, never knows what awaits you around the corner.
We all ended up in different countries, different places… And sometimes you don’t wish for anything else more than to just see your important ones. Sounds childish maybe in such individualistic times, how come, grow up. Well, I won’t, so just deal with it. For me, family is everything.
So much to tell, but so little I can express right now… only that I love you guys, I miss you, and I wish that one day our dream will come true and we can be together again…
It’s all over the news again, just like that one winter -- it’s on everybody’s lips. Someone so young and innocent is dead.
Concurrently, we should light up the candles in remembrance of all those who have gone too young.
How little control human being actually has over itself is terrifying to realize. We are prone to almost without exception follow the rule of prize-or-punishment structure, just like any animals. People are pushed and played around so easily, like puppets.
It’s amazingly easy to manipulate the whole race, not even mentioning a sole person. To just believe how easily even masses of people can be pushed towards dreadful things that are done in only a worst nightmares, towards horrifying deeds that are executed on another living creature. And surely these same killing hands can’t even themselves comprehend after some time has gone by, that what have they done.
Nothing is more precious than life of another. And we won’t see it without compassion. People don’t think enough, sometimes it seems like they don’t think at all. The scary part is that it can happen to your any fellow mate…
It’s amazing how really time flies by… The more interesting time in your life you are living, the more you’re enjoying, learning, changing, evolving and experiencing the faster the time leaves behind you pushing you to go forward. Once you turn back to notice that you’re far ahead, and the time, that you thought was on your side, is far behind, and left you all alone with brand new you, brand new thoughts… perhaps in even brand new place… You might feel just a bit… awkward for that sort of new situation. Perhaps like a new hair-cut that you just gotta get used to.
How often do we really stop to think of our life? I mean, how often do we spend more than five minutes of that tram, or a car-ride, daydreaming moment, with music on, and really take a time and dig inside of us to evaluate more in-depth what the hell has happened in our past, or what we want from our future? Say, in my case 25 and half years has past. How often do we remember ourselves for the damn good things we’ve achieved over the past years? How often we reminisce those golden moments when you felt over the top. Whatever your answer was, I’d say the time you take isn’t enough.
What about our friends, past or present, that have gone that one extra mile to help us in one way or another. Also, I personally feel like a biggest dick on earth coz’ I haven’t gone to see many of my old, very close friends after they started their families, or gave a birth, even though they are so often on my mind. So what’s my great excuse? Let’s not even go there… Long-stretched weekends with day-after, or even three days, of incapable brain functioning and major laziness. Well, I’m sure I’d appreciate as hell if I’d hear that sort of reasoning from people that are important to me.
At the same time, vice versus, many of my friends have forgotten events that have been meaningful to me. So, I do know there’s no point to hold grudges over something fairly small. For me, the fact I have known someone for over ten years and just got a bit busy and also grown a bit apart from our mutual lifestyles but isn’t a deal-breaker. Coz’ I still hold that strong emotional and mental link, and appreciation towards our long-lasted friendship, as it can only be achieved over many years, and is far more important to me than some time spent apart and events left unattended. I’d never wanna lose one’s heart over some silly single day in my life.
How about on a more tender topic — our romances or exes? We’re too busy trying to forget about them and blame them for all the stupid shit they’ve done, instead of thinking how much wiser you may have become because of your relationship, or even a fling, or any meaningful encounter. Of course, blaming is the easiest. Because attack is the best defense to protect yourself. Even though, I think it is cowardice. A time too often, people ruin their beautiful relations because they’re so scared to lose their face. However, they do it not only to save their face but also to not lose that little piece of their self-confidense, and in order to save it, they keep believing that only they are totally right. That is why, they are so stubborn to admit their mistakes. I’d still say, even if you suffered during the time together, because of many painful set-backs and fights, you still gained lots more in your basket of life-experience — you will get or you even already got stronger. On one condition though, only if you dare to admit your mistakes, even to yourself only, then comprehend them, and turn them in the positive light. Just mere fact, that you’ve tried to make some beautiful relationship you believed to be special one to work out is already damn courageous. You took that first step, you did your best. Next time that kind of step will be easier. Also, next time maybe you won’t step into any pitfalls and actually succeed in trying. Well, in those fucked up cases when it really doesn’t work out, don’t worry coz' there’s more fairytales than just that one of the Cinderella’s. Personally, I’d get more self-confidence knowing I did it all trying to work it out in what I believed with all my heart, and failing, rather than not trying at all and protected my bare and boring ass. At least, if I fucked it up, even royally, I did what I wanted, I took my chance exactly on my terms. Obviously, if you’re scared shitless you always gonna walk safe ways only. But that’s not living or following your dream, it’s merely existing from day-to-day without any bursts of indescribably beautiful feelings.
In the end of the day, we are all living and feeling creatures, and no matter whether it was your lover or your friend, the time you spend together will always leave some sort of permanent mark on you. Some can be in a form of a scar, some can be deep in your heart and memory, and some can be in a form of a child. The only hope is that in the future we’re gonna be more tolerant towards others, more humanly and more able to express ourselves the way we exactly feel. Every step we take, and that’s inevitable, makes us wiser. The strength follows only after we learn how we can use our wisdom. Like they say:” Don’t cry because it is over, smile because it has happened!”
THE SWEETEST WATERMELONS & THE SWEETEST FRIENDS 2010
ENJOYING PINK’S CONCERT — BUMPING INTO MY SECOND FAMILY
DEVILISH ANGELS ON THE ROOF TOP OF THE CITY
CAPTAIN’S HELPERS ON THE CRUISE TO ESTONIA
THE GOLDEN WEEKEND
THE GIRLS ON FIRE
SOME OF THE CRAZIEST PARTY CHICAS IN FINLAND
THE BIOREX MIXXED DISCOTHEQUE
THE SWEDISH HOUSE MAFIA — FINLAND
FOOLING AROUND WITH FOAM
SHOWING HOW TO PARTY ON THE ROOF-TOP-HELSINKI
A LITTLE X-MAS PARTY AT PG
THRILLER
THE GIRLS NIGHT OUT AT A KARAOKE
THE MID-SUMMER PARTY
HOPPAAAA!
HELSINKI BY NIGHT
TSIRBULA & RIMPULA
CLUB JENNY WOO
CLUB Don’t Tell Mama
SAY WHAAT?!
MY TREASURES
LOLLIPOP, LADIES & HOT SHOTS
HUNKS & ESTONIA TRIP
BADASSES VOL. 1
THE MUSICAL CATS
ABOVE & BEYOND
MIXXED AND MATCHED
“BEING DIFFERENT MAKES US IRREPLACEABLE” - COCO CHANEL
There’s still many things left untold I wanted to tell about. I wanted to reminisce a year gone by. I wanted to tell about my trips and things I’ve done in the past. I even haven’t had time to tell about my christmas, and the Pendulum weekend.
I feel the story is unjustified without a picture. A picture tells a thousand words, that’s why this whole blogging thing is so great. You can see, hear and that way even feel the story of the person telling it on so much more personal level. Perhaps identify with it, or at least think of it more accurately, just the way it may have happened.
So still waiting for the pics, and once I get them, you’ll definitely see them, too! I am off to run some errands and to meet up with my lovely, picture keeper gal, to do some shopping for NYE dresses! ;-)
Arrivederci!
P.S. Here’s the lyrics for the uplifting song above as well ;-)
P.P.S. This Blogger, or my Mac, or me, are keeping messin’ up with the measurements for the videos I keep on posting… will try to sort it out later on! Meanwhile, enjoy the sound and only teeny tiny screen coming with it! ;D
You should believe me
And everything I choose to do
You should believe that Ill
Always come back to you
Life is discovering
The love that we create
Life is a mystery
We need to embrace
In every way
You need to let go
Youll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
(Repeat 2x)
Open your mind and see
We have everything we need
Dream or reality
Fulfill its destiny
In every way
You need to let go
Youll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
(Repeat 2x)
You need to let go
You need to let go
(With instrumentals)
People rise
When they believe
Change the day
This life keeps movin
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
