I have been thinking about getting a tattoo however, there’s few buts…
I never really knew whether I wanted to get a tattoo or not. On a few occasions, I’ve checked some tattoos with my girlfriend in Australia, and we thought to get exactly same ones for the sake of our crazy & mind-blowing memories in Australia, however, we both chickened out — not for the pain, but for the uncertainty. My friend wasn’t sure whether she really wanted that Chinese calligraphy that everyone seemed to have, which I agreed on.
In my case it was more of a bigger mental step. I didn’t want to ruin that perfectly clean piece of skin I still had, and just mark it for the sake of a decoration, or some really not so meaningful mark, with possibly later indifferent significance for me. I wanted something that could last forever, could stay the tests of time, because the time if something is truly a test. I want something that lasts forever, maybe fades a little, even gets a few cracks along the way, but never disappears. That kind of a tattoo I wanted.
I still am not sure whether I wanna ‘ruin’ my skin and mark myself, or stay unmarked and unchained to any philosophies, or memories. But if I was to make one philosophy to live forever with me, it would be — Semper Fidelis, also shortened to, Semper Fi — Always Faithful.
I’m sure you don’t wanna hear anything about christmas or anything to do with christmas anytime soon, coz’ I certainly don’t…
But alas, being an immigrant from a different culture makes me having to see everything in double. So that eventually we start celebrating the damn thing every year twice. So be it, since the child I’ve had a pair of christmases, and a pair of easters… what a glory! Ever-lasting beer-goggles that are made for kids only. Thanks Julius Caeser, I appreciate. Or shall I say, I appreciated before. Now, I’m happy at least a year is changing only once! I can avoid a week-long hang overs, because truly and honestly, the older I get the less and less I have left stamina for all this binge partying. Too much funny for a mummy. And, to skip even a single one party is out of the question, of course.
The double celebrations due to two different calendars, the old one and the new one, are actually little bit of a head-ache. Just when I thought get back in shape, I wake up to this frustrating day, the 7th of January, and my mom is literally making me taste and eat all sorts of don’t-even-remember-what foods with my eyes still being half closed. I haven’t woken up properly yet. Definitely not one of my best days. Maybe I woke up on a wrong side of my bed… or I am still dreaming. Actually maybe it’s just a lack of presents hence my annoyance — I got like, one, or two, this year. Okay, maybe two. This christmas was really like some Uni campus end of semester bash. So not calm, but so… loud. And so opposite of what I have imagined it to be this year.
If I was a Little Demi, I’d write the exact same letter Little Johnny wrote to this Santa, except I’d write to the one that hangs out in Lapland… oh Johnny you read my mind:
It’s amazing how really time flies by… The more interesting time in your life you are living, the more you’re enjoying, learning, changing, evolving and experiencing the faster the time leaves behind you pushing you to go forward. Once you turn back to notice that you’re far ahead, and the time, that you thought was on your side, is far behind, and left you all alone with brand new you, brand new thoughts… perhaps in even brand new place… You might feel just a bit… awkward for that sort of new situation. Perhaps like a new hair-cut that you just gotta get used to.
How often do we really stop to think of our life? I mean, how often do we spend more than five minutes of that tram, or a car-ride, daydreaming moment, with music on, and really take a time and dig inside of us to evaluate more in-depth what the hell has happened in our past, or what we want from our future? Say, in my case 25 and half years has past. How often do we remember ourselves for the damn good things we’ve achieved over the past years? How often we reminisce those golden moments when you felt over the top. Whatever your answer was, I’d say the time you take isn’t enough.
What about our friends, past or present, that have gone that one extra mile to help us in one way or another. Also, I personally feel like a biggest dick on earth coz’ I haven’t gone to see many of my old, very close friends after they started their families, or gave a birth, even though they are so often on my mind. So what’s my great excuse? Let’s not even go there… Long-stretched weekends with day-after, or even three days, of incapable brain functioning and major laziness. Well, I’m sure I’d appreciate as hell if I’d hear that sort of reasoning from people that are important to me.
At the same time, vice versus, many of my friends have forgotten events that have been meaningful to me. So, I do know there’s no point to hold grudges over something fairly small. For me, the fact I have known someone for over ten years and just got a bit busy and also grown a bit apart from our mutual lifestyles but isn’t a deal-breaker. Coz’ I still hold that strong emotional and mental link, and appreciation towards our long-lasted friendship, as it can only be achieved over many years, and is far more important to me than some time spent apart and events left unattended. I’d never wanna lose one’s heart over some silly single day in my life.
How about on a more tender topic — our romances or exes? We’re too busy trying to forget about them and blame them for all the stupid shit they’ve done, instead of thinking how much wiser you may have become because of your relationship, or even a fling, or any meaningful encounter. Of course, blaming is the easiest. Because attack is the best defense to protect yourself. Even though, I think it is cowardice. A time too often, people ruin their beautiful relations because they’re so scared to lose their face. However, they do it not only to save their face but also to not lose that little piece of their self-confidense, and in order to save it, they keep believing that only they are totally right. That is why, they are so stubborn to admit their mistakes. I’d still say, even if you suffered during the time together, because of many painful set-backs and fights, you still gained lots more in your basket of life-experience — you will get or you even already got stronger. On one condition though, only if you dare to admit your mistakes, even to yourself only, then comprehend them, and turn them in the positive light. Just mere fact, that you’ve tried to make some beautiful relationship you believed to be special one to work out is already damn courageous. You took that first step, you did your best. Next time that kind of step will be easier. Also, next time maybe you won’t step into any pitfalls and actually succeed in trying. Well, in those fucked up cases when it really doesn’t work out, don’t worry coz' there’s more fairytales than just that one of the Cinderella’s. Personally, I’d get more self-confidence knowing I did it all trying to work it out in what I believed with all my heart, and failing, rather than not trying at all and protected my bare and boring ass. At least, if I fucked it up, even royally, I did what I wanted, I took my chance exactly on my terms. Obviously, if you’re scared shitless you always gonna walk safe ways only. But that’s not living or following your dream, it’s merely existing from day-to-day without any bursts of indescribably beautiful feelings.
In the end of the day, we are all living and feeling creatures, and no matter whether it was your lover or your friend, the time you spend together will always leave some sort of permanent mark on you. Some can be in a form of a scar, some can be deep in your heart and memory, and some can be in a form of a child. The only hope is that in the future we’re gonna be more tolerant towards others, more humanly and more able to express ourselves the way we exactly feel. Every step we take, and that’s inevitable, makes us wiser. The strength follows only after we learn how we can use our wisdom. Like they say:” Don’t cry because it is over, smile because it has happened!”
THE SWEETEST WATERMELONS & THE SWEETEST FRIENDS 2010
ENJOYING PINK’S CONCERT — BUMPING INTO MY SECOND FAMILY
DEVILISH ANGELS ON THE ROOF TOP OF THE CITY
CAPTAIN’S HELPERS ON THE CRUISE TO ESTONIA
THE GOLDEN WEEKEND
THE GIRLS ON FIRE
SOME OF THE CRAZIEST PARTY CHICAS IN FINLAND
THE BIOREX MIXXED DISCOTHEQUE
THE SWEDISH HOUSE MAFIA — FINLAND
FOOLING AROUND WITH FOAM
SHOWING HOW TO PARTY ON THE ROOF-TOP-HELSINKI
A LITTLE X-MAS PARTY AT PG
THRILLER
THE GIRLS NIGHT OUT AT A KARAOKE
THE MID-SUMMER PARTY
HOPPAAAA!
HELSINKI BY NIGHT
TSIRBULA & RIMPULA
CLUB JENNY WOO
CLUB Don’t Tell Mama
SAY WHAAT?!
MY TREASURES
LOLLIPOP, LADIES & HOT SHOTS
HUNKS & ESTONIA TRIP
BADASSES VOL. 1
THE MUSICAL CATS
ABOVE & BEYOND
MIXXED AND MATCHED
“BEING DIFFERENT MAKES US IRREPLACEABLE” - COCO CHANEL
Today, I had a job interview and it went just great! My friend called me up to see whether I was interested to help out in a tiny modern café in a central location where to and from is very easy to get. I was thinking to start my job hunt little later AFTER a New Year’s Eve and hang-overs caused by the amount of champagne & sparkling wine I am intending to consume irresponsibly. So, this is really quiet nice coincidence!
The best part I am gonna get my so longed daily rhythm in my life! Damn nice! No more staying up vampire times, or waking up when people are getting screaming kids from kindergarden to spoil my day completely! By the way, I do like kids. Only they gotta to be either super cute or super well-behaved! Not the ones that are screaming and spoiled brats, thankyouverymuch!
More on the good note, it’s that time of the year again! The sales are here to annoy some and to make others very, very happy! I even managed to get few lil’ thingies for myself! Like lots of hair treatments and other products from HairStore for such a bargain! I recommend to check it out, if you wanna stock up for some hair products for the next year. I am definitely going there again ASAP.
Clothes-wise, from Spirit Store found one long tee & leggings that I planned to wear on the NYE, well, NOT gonna happen. Looks like I’m going to buy milk if I’m wearing those… Terribly unsuccessful finding! I just might have to resort on my old but good favorite dress by Guess Marciano, and shoes by the same brand. The other option is newish golden dress you can see from the pics below, and, of course, comments will be appreciated, if you like either one of the dresses more.
The only dilemma left for me is, that, unfortunately, my brand new nails are mix of pink, white and silver. Maybe not the best combination with silver and gold but who cares! Everyones gonna be smashed and it’s gonna be dark anyway so they won’t even see what I am wearing… Just ohhhh how I, myself, hate to wear not matching things!
Also, they say that on the NYE you should wear new, fresh clothes coz’ the way you welcome a new year, that way you gonna spend the whole coming year! Yesss, yes, I am very superstitious, that, too! Luckily, I ‘still' have a whole day to finalize my dress for the NYE. The countdown starts now!
NAILS & DESIGN - NAIL FASHION
NAILS & DESIGN - NAIL FASION
DRESS - MODTEX, SHOES - GUESS
DRESS - GUESS, SHOES - GUESS
SHOES - GUESS
P.S. Still those videos are terrorizing my nerves - please be patient too!:D Also, the pic quality is the best what you can get from iPhone3. Patience is gold, right!
There’s still many things left untold I wanted to tell about. I wanted to reminisce a year gone by. I wanted to tell about my trips and things I’ve done in the past. I even haven’t had time to tell about my christmas, and the Pendulum weekend.
I feel the story is unjustified without a picture. A picture tells a thousand words, that’s why this whole blogging thing is so great. You can see, hear and that way even feel the story of the person telling it on so much more personal level. Perhaps identify with it, or at least think of it more accurately, just the way it may have happened.
So still waiting for the pics, and once I get them, you’ll definitely see them, too! I am off to run some errands and to meet up with my lovely, picture keeper gal, to do some shopping for NYE dresses! ;-)
Arrivederci!
P.S. Here’s the lyrics for the uplifting song above as well ;-)
P.P.S. This Blogger, or my Mac, or me, are keeping messin’ up with the measurements for the videos I keep on posting… will try to sort it out later on! Meanwhile, enjoy the sound and only teeny tiny screen coming with it! ;D
You should believe me
And everything I choose to do
You should believe that Ill
Always come back to you
Life is discovering
The love that we create
Life is a mystery
We need to embrace
In every way
You need to let go
Youll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
(Repeat 2x)
Open your mind and see
We have everything we need
Dream or reality
Fulfill its destiny
In every way
You need to let go
Youll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
(Repeat 2x)
You need to let go
You need to let go
(With instrumentals)
People rise
When they believe
Change the day
This life keeps movin
(Chorus)
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin
Uffff dammit… I woke up disgustingly late again, which means I don’t get to see the sun shining, even though I have no clue whether there was even sunshine today. Which also means I gotta OD on D3-vitamin coz’ of lack of it… no I wouldn’t even call it a lack… rather non-existant D-vitamin supply. Now in turn I’m gonna do lil’ vitamin dosing & head to the gym for some total & fit ball training. Oh crap… I wanted to see Sini… not gonna happen today though, it’s 7PM there’s no way I’ve got time for both! Oh, and don’t forget guys if you live anywhere near my latitude and it’s dark, music is a MUST pick up tool! So crank it up & get going! ;)
Ooops, is it really over a week since I've posted anything here?! And all the promises to keep this up & running with the most fresh goss around frequently! Ohh welll.. pardon!
TIM BERG - SEEK BROMANCE
So it all started at Iinas birthday party I'd say... Whenever I make promises to take it easy and celebrate in moderation, anything but moderate is a result! We headed to the Grande Grill restaurant with our handmade gorgeous cake me, Sini & Oona baked for the birthday girl & garnished with lots of love, enthusiasm & cream! Minus few small mistakes (like adding 4 dl sugar instead of 1.5 dl, mea culpa, and having to bake the base again) the bakery mission was accomplished perfectly! You can see from the pics below what a happy facial expression Iina has where she is posing in front of the cake. ;-)
The pick of the restaurant wasn't too bad coz' we had the whole second floor for ourselves and our loud, as per usual, catching ups & congrats! The service was friendly & up-to-the-scratch with the exception of few delays, which is understandable as our waitress was surviving alone with our piling amount of drink orders! The food was average or maybe it was my choice of poor salad that wasn't enough at all, and I left hungry & not satisfied! Thankfully our cake & lots of red wine saved my night in the Grande Grill!
After eating, hanging out & taking lots of pics in the restaurant we headed to the club Huuma to shake off some calories. But I think the amount of hot-shots defeated the purpose completely! And be it so, I had a great time (if not taking into account few incidents 'caused by few too many hot-shots) and... the dreadful hang-over the next day! So dreadful that I had to get some red wine for pick-me-up drink & head straight to Sini to complain and suffer from my hang-over with somebody rather than alone! Thank God, I have such an understanding & sweet friend coz' probably I wouldn't survived if not for her, wine, romantic comedies & kilo of sweets! :-)
All in all Iina’s birthday party was a success but my after math was such a mess! I never returned from Sini that week! But that's a whole different story and I promise to tell it soon enough! ;)
